NO U-turn...

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 17:10:38 GMT

there are billions of people all over the world. whenever we go out there like taking a walk, riding on a bus or taking the subway, going to a bar, sitting on a bench at a park, we see people. sometimes we look at each other's faces. some are happy. some are smiling, some are busy doing a day's task. we'll see someone that is attractive, someone that is not attractive, someone who looks intimidating.

isn't it amazing that we look at those people we see and judge from their looks but we never really get the chance to know what's happening inside their hearts. what's bothering them, what's making them happy, what exactly are they thinking at the moment.

we look at the people around us and that was it. and most of the time we didn't care coz we don';t know them at all..their business is not ours. or simply because they're not part of their life.

it is also amazing to think that somehow we are all connected to each other we're just not aware of it.

again..i dunnow what's my point while i was typing this dull thing again..just a thought taht popped out of my mind while smoking and chatting withmy friend pamela on yahoo chat....

ah! i remember! im just feeling depressed and desparate again on how i feel trapped here... im sure there's a reason why God brought me here in china. i just haven't realized it yet. im waiting till God will bring me right in front of that right person im gonna share my life with. yeah here i go again whining about meeting my better half....., sometimes i think i just wanna close my eyes and walk..and not think about him...maybe one day ill just bump into him and that would be it........

stop it cate! you're life isn't a fairy tale nor a movie! not all us get that happy ending!

don't read this crap! im just being pathetic again!

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 16:58:52 GMT

happy mid-autumn festival.... :)

it started to get cold again.... soon it'll be super cold..... the weather can be too depressing on those times...but somehow it cheers me up a bit coz it means im getting closer to seeing home :)

i met new friends...the new teacher's from teacher's college and other new foreign teachers around chengde...they're nice and fun to be with...i also have my new student who is more of like a friend and sister to me than she is my student :) i feel sooo lucky to have so many friends here....they're all nice and sweet :)

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 14:53:19 GMT

It'll be mid-autumn festival in a few days..... i miss home.... 4 months more then I'll be home again for 2-3 weeks...i hope it's enough to spend time with my family.....i'm too busy working these days.... busy with my teaching and part time jobs.... ohhhhh..i want to travel.... :P

               I don't exactly know what to feel these days....the good news is i know exactly what i want! :) I WANNA GO HOME!! I MISS HOME SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH! i miss spending time with my family and friends...., i can still feel that empty part of me waiting to be filled....but i can't pay attention to that feeling at the moment...i think that empty part can wait..... it needs time.... no hurry...with marla and my job keeping me too busy..i don't think i can be bothered...., i don't even have time updating my facebook or friendster....nor play games... these past few days.... as i finish my day's work...i'll just cook dinner for me and marla.. eat dinner...check my emails....chat with my sister and some friends, check my student's homeworks on time.., prepare for my lessons, plan for the next day, clean my room, do the dishes, watch half movie on dvd or read a book....by 10pm i'm already asleep...the next day i wake up at 7am or 8am...clean marla's mess again then prepare for class..., and the same routine will follow...

                 when i have some free time..., i will hangout at rosie's house for dinner every friday night after my last partime at 6:30pm...
last week before the big news about h1n1 here in chengde spread, i gave up my part time in longhua...i feel so tired to got here it takes me almost 7 hours every saturday to finish my work there and im not getting a lot...i decided to find a replacement job here in the city and so i got 2 more...but the other one hasn't confirmed yet..so if i get that other job..i'll be having 4 part time jobs and my regular teaching job..

              no...i am not killing myself :P i just want to work hard and fill all my free time as much as possible...keep myself busy so i will not end up counting the days until i feel so homesick again.....and besides..money is good..and i need it.... because i am not a wise spender...and now i have to start saving because i have soooooooooooooo many plans when i come home... my travel with my whole family, buy my mom a car, treat my sister for shopping for she has done so much errands for me while i was away...., she's the best sister in the whole world i can say that! ohhhhhhh i miss my family so much..of course they're not perfect and they're not the kind of family memeber that say i love you to each other every minute...but i know they love me so much....and we protect each other.... i can't wait to be with themmmmmmmmmmmm.......
            if in the future i wont have my own family...., at least i hope i can share with my sibling's family :D i think i will be a good aunt...but of course i still dream to have a family of my own..but sometimes i think it's not for me...because i will be 26 this november and yet i am still single..and i don't even think that i will have a baby because i haven't got my period for almost a year now.... sometimes i think what bad things have i done in my previous life? am i an abortionist? ohhh damn
              i really hope i will have a baby before it's too late.... having a husband is not a big dream for me now...i find it impossible for people to really fall in love...or maybe it is possible...but mybe it's not my fate to fall in love or someone will fall in love iwth me....i am just one of those unlucky persons who cannot find their other half....i think i am not good in keeping the relationships....i am too possessive-obssessive i guess......and i am tired of getting hurt :P
              hmmmmmmmmmm........ ohhhhhhhh i can't wait till tomorrow!!!! :) last day of classes! and i'll have almost a week holiday...but maybe 3 days on those days ill have classes..it sucks but i ahve no choice..i just have to rejoice to have at least one whole day rest and i'll be the happiest person :) anyway this sunday my friend-student sophie will go hiking ;) i'm so excited! :) haaaaaaay...., i wrote a long entry again...but it's ok... i ahven't written anything for a long time :P coz im too busy! anyway it's 11pm..i need to sleep.... hahahha and finisht eh book im reading! byers!

byebye summer!

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 18:32:28 GMT

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 21:19:08 GMT

           im happy to be back again in lj :P long time no write.... hehehehe... i just got back from my Beijing trip last week...and ive been staying here in my room mostly trying to be lazy enough by sitting infront of my computer all day and all night...reading and cooking food for Marla... :P
sometimes i think i am Marla's slave :P hahaha if she wants to play we play..if she's hungry i cook food for her :P
           if marla isn't here...i guess i wont be bothered to cook food and eat.... too busy playing farm town in facebook...

       i stopped a bit to upload my beijing pics in facebook...and now it's 5:20am...., haaaaaaaaaaaaaay

i wish school will start soon..i feel a bit bored and im really looking forward in going back home again....heheheh...

anyway.. i really have to take ar est now... i cant think of wnything anymore...i have to sleep brefore marla wakes up

unexplainable sadness

Sat, 01 Aug 2009 19:07:38 GMT

      just as i was about to sleep at 2am... i felt this sadness..... i dunno it just striked me.... i looked back at the past few days of my life...i was so happy and contented and suddenly i felt this emptiness again.... i know that there's this gap inside me that must be filled....but i am really too afraid...., for a long time due to some reasons i have decided that this emptiness inside shouldn't be filled...it's easier to leave it empty than be filled with bitter and unreal happiness.... for i know it won't last long...

         why do we need to be happy? why do we want to be happy? what really is happiness? or what will really make us happy? for awhile i have decided not to share my life with anybody... i should stay single for awhile... coz i really don't wanna get hurt again.... it will be better this way i think...

        mybe i just miss my family and friends tonight...i ahve been away from home for a long time.... thinking of 4 more months till i get back home again feels like im waiting forever... i know and i believe that i dont need a lover to be happy... all relationships are just happy in the beginning when u are still overwhelmed with your new found love....but sooner or later things won't stay as they are and the relationship will fall apart...., i dunno how to trust again...., and i dont wanna believe that somewhere out there ...someone is destined to be together with me...if there is...that person who will think im the one for him is crazy.... no one can accept me as me.... and no one will really ever love me....

           my heart is as good as dead.... and i dont wanna feel it beating for love again... tonight , i have finally decided to forget about one person.... i have been fooling myself that i can just stay friends with him...but the past few days i realized that i really can't... he can never like me for so many reasons... and it just can't be... no matter how long will i wait.... and each time he disappears and i was about to forget about him...he will show up again and all my feelings for him will be back again and i wont be able to stop myself again...even if im not with him in person i dunno why i feel this way...it really sounds fuckin' crazy but i dunno...im a weird person... i live in my fantasies i guess.....the better way to stop this is to avoid the person as long as i can...and tonight i have found a better solution...... and i hope i would be able to make it work.......

      i feel like a crazy person each time i write serious things about this thing.... and i hope that this is the last entry i will write about this...........

enough.....

tomorrow will be another day...

hmmmm

Sat, 01 Aug 2009 10:57:33 GMT

    i woke up at 2pm today....dinner plan was cancelled so i just watched Sex and the City the Movie....it took me almost 4 hours to finish the movie :P so many interruptions :P haaay...

       marla is sleeping on my feet now so i can't move... i dont want to wake her up...i think i have a lazy lazy dog...she slept from 12 am ast night till i woke up at 2pm today and she's sleeping agian :P hahahahha

    anyhw...im gonna eat dinner now...and then watch the rest 5 remaining episodes of Heroes season 3 :) tomorrow ill be having lunch with Marie's mom in the downtown....

heheheh sleepless night again :P

Fri, 31 Jul 2009 21:46:32 GMT

hahah i can't believe that i wrote an entry for almost an hour! hahaha well those 12 days are one of the best days of my life! :)

                im in the mood for writing! :P in 2 days it will be the 2nd death anniversary of my beloved grandmama..i love her soo much and i miss her soooooooooo much...

                   so much for the drama :P hehhehe i cant sleep...., i still feel a bit tired of this boredom..tho i feel lazy to go out...the other day i went out with my student and her family...we went to the boundary of Hebei province and Inner Mongolia.... it was a beautiful grassland....so nice place....i brought Marla with me...she got sick in the car during the long car ride in the mroning :P the plan was really to stay there overnight but nothing much to do there so we just decided to drive back home.... Marla slept on the the for the whole 3 hours on our way back home... :P she slept like a dead dog in the car :P hahahah

                    so i slept the whole night last night from 11pm till 12pm this afternoon..that's why im still up till this late :P i played pc game the whole day and cooked dinner...watched 5 episodes of Heroes season 3 after dinner and a documentary about terracotta army on youtube ..chat with my sister a bit and then now doing livejournal :P

                      and so i was a bit busy and still feeling bored :P later today i might be ahving dinner with my friend and antoerh new friend Japanese interpreter Hippo :P

                  supposedly i was about to go swimming with my student on sunday but he cancelled.... it will be rescheduled on august 13 right after i got back from beijing for pam's bday.

             so ill be in Beijing from August 8 to 12 :) that will be another free traveling....

              i feel the luckiest person now..i can go anywhere for free....t eh whole 12 days trip in western china is free...the Edge of Inner Mongolia trip aslo free and got 5 days stay in Beijng for free...courtesy of my good friend Pamela hahaha thanks for birthdays! :P im enjoying mylife now :P tho my plans to go to Guilin was ruined...im happy...i was able to meet one plan that is to see the terracotta army :)

                         so maybe ill have another trip again on august 24th for a whole week to Inner Mongolia...not sure yet....Mr.Jia is still planning ;)

          anyways...gotta go to sleep coz marla will wake me up again in a few hours :P gnyt

hhha btw...im trying to learn sining some chinese songs :P hahahha :P

home sweet home... :P

Fri, 31 Jul 2009 21:35:07 GMT

        but not in Philippines but in Chengde..., haaaaay....., I was traveling around Western China for 12 days... heheheh i haven't been writing for awhile....i was too busy finishing teaching all my regular classes and 2 part time jobs.... then right after finishing all my tasks...i left Chengde for the Western China trip....it was fuckin' awesome! ;)

        Western China trip from day 1 to 12....

DAY 1 - Left Chengde at 1pm. Reached Beijing Airport at around 5:30pm and our flight is at 9:30 pm! :P and it was
                 raining heavily that day so the flight was delayed... went to starbucks to kill time...had a frap and tried to get
               internet access and this is where i accidentally deleted my damn ip address taht's why my laptop
                  cant connect to internet here in school nowadays :(
                at 10:30 pm we started to board on the plane...... and it's almost a 2 hour flight with so much turbulence...the
               flight was a bit boring coz the man sitting beside me is one of the big bosses and he cannot speak english
               all we can talk about or ask is other is "你累吗？“（ni lei ma) meaning ARE U TIRED? heehehe
                we reached our first destination at 12:40am drove to the hotel for an hour.... finally at 2am we reached the hotel and i was dead tired. morning call is at 7am :D

DAY 2 - LANZHOU

                  we had breakfast and went to see the famous bridge of lanzhou where u can see the yellow river and some temples from the mountain.... then went to a place where the famous mother and child statue is at...and to see the raft made from sheep skin... i really cant remember everything we did on this place...., and i didnt know how time flew so fast.... we went to see the Water Wheels in the afternoon :) and i was interviewed by the local tv station there jsut to ask me if i can guess the temperature of the water on the waterwheel fountain...hehehe sounds a bit crazy eh? :P then we had dinner...., they forced me to drink bai juo (chinese wine) i dont even know how to spell it correctly :P the president of the school was so drunk that he was so talkative...and he talked to me alot tho i really cant speak chinese....but we have an interpreter hehehhehe.........on the train...he still talked to me...and i am starting to get uneasy...so i pretended im tired..and he let us go to sleep...tho i didn't sleep well for he talked on the phone the whole night sooooooooo loud :P

DAY 3 - DUNHUANG

                    this is my most favorite place in all those 12 days around western china...hehehhe i love this place so much! so beautiful...and even the tour guide is really good! :) so when we reached dunhuang...we first went to see the GreatWall of Han Dynasty... not so in good condition tho...i reallly didn't see the wall..just the ruins.......
then drove to the hotel for almost 4 hours...the bus was really slow for we encountered a MILD SANDSTORM that is according to our tourguide but for us it's not :P then when we reached the city of dunhuang.... the school decided to treat us for a show at the theatre after dinner...so i dressed up :P hehehhehe the show was fuckin awesome!

                    night market after the show and just as we were about to finish shopping at the night market...the president Mr.Jia's bodyguard spotted us and called to join them for bbq but i know we will be drinking bai jiu! :(
and so it happened..they dont want me to gambei(toast) with Pepsi cola :(
                    then a guitarman came and started singing songs for us...and so i asked my friend if we can borrow the guitar and i wanna sing them a song :P and so i sang the song and so many gambei's came after the song...hahah i feel like a star tho after singing the song....haha i got it on video but i dunno if i have the guts to show it here :P hahahah then before we call it a night...the president of our school presented me with a gift...a colourful scarf that is so lovely...and i really didn't know it was expensive until the 8th day of our trip :P

DAY 4 - DUNHUANG

                this is a very exciting day! :P we went to see the Sand Mountain. i rode a camel!and my camel is a bit weird because we almost fell from the sand mountain for it's trying to sniff other camel's ass and so we are not on the line and almost on the edge of the sand mountain..i was soooo scared! tried the sand tobbogan.... got tanned under that sand mountain.... visited the Mogao Grottos...
                 and so because of my singing thingy the other night.....Mr. Jia asked the tour guide to find a place for us to eat dinner and sing KTV.... and so it a night of partying... im not allowed to drink juice...i have to gambei with bai jiu...i am the first to sing on KTV.... i sang My Heart Will Go On..heheh it is a hit here...and unfortunately it's Mr. Jia's favorite english song :P and for my 2nd song... i sang a filipino song and dedicated it to everybody..i made a short speech and after singing the song.. Mr. Jia made a speech too and it made us both cry....

               一中 is the best school i have ever taught...students are great....people are very nice and hospitable and i have the most kind and generous boss ever :) i feel so lucky that i am working with these nice and lovely people... no boss has ever treated me like a princess but Mr. Jia :)

                    so much for the drama...before everybody has left..., he asked me to sing My heart will go on again..and he was so drunk taht i dunno what he has been doing while im singing...but it was really weird i dont want to remember :P coz he's acting funny...so i just stood still until i finished the song. my friend and i still went to the night market after the party :P

DAY 5 - YARDAN LANDFORMS

                   still in Dunhuang...we left early to drive to Yardan Landforms or the Devil's Land as they call it....it was so hot there but really nice :)    and then drove to the train station... we will be on the train from 5pm till 9am the next day :P so i can sleep all i want till 8am heheheh.... take note...the sun doesnt set in Dunhuang till 9pm... :P
             ohhhhh...i will miss our good tourguide...i had her sign the book i bought in dunhuang about the silk road and gave her a bracelet as a gift :) i like her so much she's so nice :)

DAY 6 - QING HAI LAKE

                  back to lanzhou.... loooooooooong drive! almost 9 hours drive from train station to the lake! :P hehehe it was worth it tho...the site was sooooooooooo amazing....beautiful grasslands and the lake :) so many things to buy there from tibetan people :) i didnt eat much tho for the foods were so spicy and my tummy doesnt feel so well the whole trip :P after seeing taht dirty dirty toilet from the food store we went to.

DAY 7 - FLIGHT TO XI'AN

                 no wake up call....just meet at hotel lobby by 10:40am... and so i slept late..i finished the movie August rush the other night...it was a fuckin' awesome movie..i loved it... :) then woke up late...didnt eat breakfast ;)
then we went to eat lunch by 11am then drove to the airport..... boarding time was supposed to be 12:10pm but it was delayed again to 2:30pm! i love EASTERN CHINA AIRLINES! i should remember this damn airlines! i dont think there's a bad weather in qinghai and xi'an that time coz when we reached Xi'an by almost 4pm it's so fuckin' hot! hahhaah nothing much to do in Xi'an... we had dinner and went back to our hotel..it's tooooooo hot to go for a walk even at night!

DAY 8 - XI'AN'S TERRACOTTA WARRIORS

   we went to a Hot Spring Palace in the morning which i cannot remember the name coz it's in chinese but the Hotspring palace belongs to the Tang Dynasty. it was awesome... after that we're supposed to go to the Terracotta Warriors Museum but our very nice tourguide brought us to a place where u can buy water proof razors...and it's like being in a LIve TV HOME SHOPPING. it took us almost an hour there...and Mr.Jia was sooooo angry and he almost wanted to fire the tour guide but the tour guide sticked with us and so Mr.Jia walked out of the group..he just let us go to Terracotta Museum and after that it was a free activity for everybody in the afternoon.

   Terracotta Warriors are soooooooooooooo fuckin' amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant believe i was there.... it was really really really awesome!

after the Museum...my friend wants to go shopping and i just went back to the hotel with my Big Mac meal and slept after eating :P i woke up at 8pm...nothing much to do so i decided to go out for a walk...and i was disappointed coz it's still sooooooo sticky hot outside...i decided to go to KFC.... and bought new sunglasses and went back to the airconditioned room of the hotel and sleep :P


REMEMBER: IF U dont like hot humid weather...don't go to Xi'an to see the Terracotta Warriors in summer.

DAY 9 - HUKOU WATERFALLS

          and so we didnt like the tourguide from Xi'an ... the tourguide from Yan An has to come pick us at Xi'an...it was another long bus ride..... almost 10 hours bus ride to go to see the HUKOU WATERFALLS...where the mighty YELLOW RIVER flows...it was amazing! like a big chocolate river flowing! then another 3-4 hours ride back to the hotel..

DAY 10 - YAN 'AN

                 Yan 'an the secret camp of the Communist Party was here...where the 7th Communist Party Meeting was held. Where Chairman Mao once stayed. A very important place for Chinese people.

                     we went to the small hill that is the symbol of the city in the morning...then wqent to see teh Date garden..where the communist leader once stayed. and then went to 10,000 Buddhas mountain.

                  Mr.Jia badly wants to draw from the Taoist Temple to ask when will i get married :p hahahah
                    had the last party for the trip.... so we all drank a lot and talked about funny things..it was fun..i got drunk that night... :P

DAY 11 - LAST DAY :(

                       went to see some other more places...visited teh auditorium where the 7th communist party meeting was held....and more offices and cave dwellings of former communist leaders...

                        ate lunch and drove to teh beautiful trainstation of yan 'an.

                            train ride from yan 'an starting at 3:30pm and we will reach beijing by 7:30 am the next day...tho the train was delayed due to thunderstorm...we reached beijing at 8am the next day...

                      i really love my director mr.jia for he gave us the soft sleeper ticket ..treated us to dinner on the train...he really is very nice to me :)

DAY 12 - HOME SWEET HOME :)

                  it was a fuckin awesome trip ever!!!! we reached chengde at around 2pm.....i picked up marla from the city.... i got so many things with me.. and i missed marla so much...im a bit sad im gonna miss all the people from the trip....and im gonna miss the people i made fun of the whole trip :P

i cant believe that 12 days is over :(

tiredom :P my newly invented word :P

Fri, 19 Jun 2009 16:32:18 GMT

haaaaaaaay ive never been this tired eversince i came here in china...

weekends are suppsoed to be fun...but i findit tiring these dyas..

partime job on friday evening..and another one on saturday for 3 hours in a "nearby" county that is 1.50 hours away from my city.... and since its so dangerous to take the bus so i have to wait for 7pm train to get back home...

im so excited that i only have 3 weeks to teach inmy regular classes and all that was left are my part time jobs...then ill be travelling around western china courtesy of our school.... then when im back i have to start teaching in summer school in the city and long hua county and another one on one tutorial.... then im hoping to be in guilin (south china) and xi'an (terracotta warriors) by the 2nd week of august... so i can relax a bit before starting to work again :) haaaaaaay just thinking of these makes me sooo happy :)

self inflicted pain....

Wed, 10 Jun 2009 17:32:57 GMT

im missing someone again.... im not gonna tell who that person isssssssssss..................... :P shitness! hahah i dont wanna be a drama queen again! hahahahha! 3 or 4 weeks more before summer vacation starts...., and i got 2 new part time jobs..., need to be workaholic if i wanna save lotsa money for my summer getaways..., im lucky to have found someone who'll take care of my marla while im away ( im such a bad fuckin' mom!) leaving my poor baby tosomeone else's care just to roam around china :P heheehehehhehehehehe.........

             dont worry baby marla....im gonna bring u to philippines in january...im using all my powers to make it happen ;)

            damn! the title of this post has nothing to do with the content again! hahahah i really suck in giving titles to my shits :P

     i just finished watching ACROSS THE UNIVERSE. for the 2nd time..the first time i saw it...i really didnt understand the movie..ijust enjoyed the songs since its alll beatle's music....why didnt i enjoy it/?!?! for there's a fuckin' talking machine beside me telling every detail of the movie since he has seen it ...i wanna put a cork on his mouth to make him shut up! hahah anow i hate the guy... before i thought he's being self centered is charming! hahaha cut the crap cate! :P

     i was just reminded for i jsut had a chat with him the other day..., he'll be gone to africa soooon and after chatting wth him...i chat with his gf the very next day..or should i say soon to be ex-gf....we jsut discovered that he never really changed and wont really change ever! hahaha i just wish he could get a really good wake up call for his being jerk....

     on the other hand..the funny thing is..., he learned i am here in china and tried to teach me some chinese phrases that i already know....and what he's teaching me is wrong :P hahahha he also said he has been here in china...but he asked me what's the time here...if he has been here how come he doesnt know that we're jsut in the same timezone? he wants to sound like a smartass but apparently, he's really not :P baaaaaaaaaad cate!!!! :P

           im just happy that i know im totally over of that jerk... ;)

                on the other hand for the second time....he has no connection or whatesover with the title of this post.... :P

                it's caused by anotehr person but im not telling about that person here :P heheheeh...............

              haaaaaay ... wow im in the fuckin' mood to write! i fuckin' miss my smokes! :'( i really need to run to the city tomorrow and get a new pack! and im kindda in need for some beer! hhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm......................... BEEEEEEEEEEER!!!! i wann get drunk tomorrow!

                 right at this moment... I, Catherine C. Cepeda....., Foreign Teacher at 一中(Chengde No.1 Senior High School) has finally decided to get drunk tomorrow night and no one can stop me! :P hehehhehe

                    im up for another PUKATHON! :P i wonder where to do it this time.... :P

                 im a fuckin' talking machine again! hahhahahahah my thoughts are in a good mood now! :P it's 1:30am and im still fully awake.... and my classes tomorrow starts at 8:20 and i have to get up at 7! very good catey! :)

                    anyhow..as much as i want to right more and bore u people...if anyone will be interested to read this..., i have to goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tooooooooooooooo beeeeeeeeeeeeed....................

                          gnytienight people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

creeeeeeepy...........

Sun, 07 Jun 2009 18:23:02 GMT

damn! tonight was a creepy night! damn! the other night, we saw a man masturbating at the dining hall facing my colleague's window...she said its not the first time she saw him masturbating there....., then tonight...., i forgot to close my window....my friend and i were busy playing computer when we suddenly heard a man whistling...i thought it's coming from the first floor but when my friend looked at the window it was the pervert from the dining hall! he is smiling at us..and he can almost reach my window! my friend and i were terrified and i couldn';t even come near my window to close it so i begged my friend to call the window and i called the international department for help...., they said they're gonna do something about it...and i dunno if they fully understand how scared we were...., i was shaking all over and my friend ran to the bathroom crying whne we saw him again from the window...i hope he wont do any harm..so i guess my window has to remain closed.... and i kept my kitchen knife on my bedside table just in case... it's really reallly creepy to know there's a pervert man around the campus and the idea that he can come near my window anytime is really scary

quiet weekend with my marla :)

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 12:08:33 GMT

HEEEY! heheh i jsut got back from the city...i hanged out with zac, richard and chris today...so first we went to a tattoo shop to see if they do piercing...unfortunately not..then richard and chris went for a massage at chengde hotel...i went with zac to go shopping for awhile then ended up having snacks at a western restaurant and cafe...met richard and chris again and went back to that cafe ..i had a glass of beer as zac insisted :P then i have to skip dinner at the bar for marla hasnt eaten anything yet...., soooo i am back home sitting on my bed..with my laptop and marla on my lap dozing off :P i guess she missed me sooo much as i haven't been spending much time with her..iom such a bad mom! :P hahahah leaving her baby to drink with friends :P so here's how cute my baby is :)

isn't she adorable? heheheh ilove that evil puppy :P hehehhe she's a darling when she's sleeping tho :P

one night in beijing

Fri, 05 Jun 2009 16:23:29 GMT

yeahhhh....last friday i went to beijing... the original plan is for me to buy laptop in the electronic market and go sight seeing with my college friend pamela...but since everybody is going to have a long weekend...when zac heard my plan, he decided to go to beijing for the weekend and invited everybody.... so almost all the foreign teachers here in our city went to beijing together...

         it was an awesome awesome night! :) aFTER spending 6 hours at the electronic center to have my laptop fully set up..we went straight to the hostel to check in...and me this french guy who is sharing the room with us and invited him to come with us for dinner and later hang out at the bar street....

         we went to The Den for dinner and then headed to shooters for our first few shots...zac gave richard a surprise lap dance :P hahahhaha

after that we tried to head to Bar Blu but there's no excitement there so we just hanged out at the Pink Bar and drank till 12am....i really love hard drinks....i dont get drunk easily....hahah i had 1 beer...but joe(french guy), after teaching him how to GAMBEI(bottom's up) he just dared me to Gambei and i gambei my half bottle of beer...so i think i got tipsy after that gambei..i had 2 shots of orgasms earlier and later got a screw driver for free :)

      after getting drunk at Pink Bar..they decided to go dancing at Bar Blu again....and here are some of the crazy crazy photos from Bar Blu:

1. joe and i dancing :)
2. richard, marie and bacardi
3. me..., pamela ( my friend in beijing) and marie
4. joe getting wild :P hahaahha

   it was a fun night! :)
   i didnt sleep much at the hostel ..., richard forgot to bring his passport so he just slept on the floor of the room....but later that early morning the hostel staff found out so they tried to wake him up...good think he's dead asleep....,
   that morning....they decided to go to the western market...but i didnt go since i have poopathon :P
we jsut met at the train station again...and here comes another scene at the train :P
     hahhah when we got on the train, andrew have mistakenly said in chinese that we are his good APPLES instead of saying we are his good FRIENDS :P hahhaha we were trying to exchange seats with 2 chinese people on the train....and so the APPLE joke started....., it lasted for the whole trip and so it ended up to be a bad joke....

       i hope he feels better now...it's understandable all of us are tired and got no sleep....
        anyhow...that whole beijing trip is awesome! :)

           i want another night in beijing! :)

yay! im back to lj!

Fri, 05 Jun 2009 15:56:56 GMT

yeba! finally im back to lj again! :) after almost 6 months.... well...many things have changed tho im still here in china :)
i am enjoying my stay here since i met new friends :) been partying a lot :P

i can post many things here again :P hahahha i hope i wont be that lazy to do that :P

loong vacation! :)

Mon, 08 Dec 2008 16:48:58 GMT

hi! it took me some time to update my LJ...., i really have no time to write the past few days..., somany homeworks to check until now.... Tim..., my biggest boss visited us here and had a big dinner with him..., busy planning for my student's christmas party..., christmas shopping...., preparing for the thigns for christmas! :) heheheh yeah! there's no christmas here in china...., but I am letting them feel the spirit of christmas... and so the school allowed us to celebrate christmas and share it with the students :)

    i put on christmas decors in my room...., and always listen to christmas songs :) soooo even if china doesnt celebrate christmas, I still found my way to celebrate it here in a normal and lovely way...

    tomorrow we'll go out and do our christmas shopping! :) since we have 5 days holidays! hehehe... 3 days holiday for the students...and they have monthly examination from tuesday till wednesday...so we are free for 5 days :)

    it's getting cold here... last thrusday it was -17C then from friday till yesterday morning its -14C + strong winds....., but today is a nice day! :) not too cold..., we have -6C today ;) and it's a sunny day! :) I hope tomorrow the weather will be nice and give us at least till -5C and higher! :)

anwya i have to hit the bed now! i am sooooooooo sleepy! and i stil have to wake up early tomorrow and check on ms.jiang's xmas tree:) ciao!

feeling better now! ;)

Fri, 28 Nov 2008 15:33:13 GMT

woah! after almost a week of being sick! I finally got well! :) thanks for those who took care of me through messages, hihihi, thanks Paradey! ;) and thanks also to my students who gave me a supply of medicine! :D and to my family who always beg me to come online tho im very very sick :D hihihi!

This whole week of being sick didn't allow me to take leave from my classes, not because the school doesn't want to, but its my choice. since the students are trying their best to attend school from 5am-10pm mon-sun..., i think, i don't have the right to take a leave or else, they will get too worried. And i only have 3-4 classes a day. so i sleep after my classes. ;) but being sick has left me with lots of homeworks to check, new lessons to prepare and reading materials to search and write a summary.

haaay, so I haven't check on your journals my dear friends.... :) but tomorrow, after doing the laundry and cleaning my dorm..., i will do it! ;)

anywhow...i am really really really really really sleepy now........, ijust got home few hours ago from work :( i need to sleep now..... gnyt everyone and happy thanksgiving to all of you! :) hugs

shopping day! :D

Sat, 22 Nov 2008 00:37:17 GMT

hmmmmmm.... as usual..., its cold today :) but im soooooo excited coz in a few minutes..., we're going shopping!!!!! haaaaay eyah....i need winter clothes, accessories for my pc, food! :D

      my body clock changed...i am now used in waking up early in the morning....i guess i am learning discipline here...

       ooohhh! im really really excited to go! hahaha it's been weeks since i went out the campus! hahahah! and we're gonna eat at mcdonald's today! ahhahahaha! i will get rid of greasy food today! heheheh! burger and fries here i come!!! :D:D::D

        anyway..i have to go and prepare now :D we'll leave at 930 and i need to take a shower eventhough its sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo coooooooooooooooooooollllllllllddddddddddddddddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

      byebye!

Fri, 21 Nov 2008 01:21:28 GMT

                  TGIF!!!! yeah! it's a cold friday morning again.. and i'm a bit pissed with my 201 class today... coz they talk toomuch in the class that they can't follow my instructions anymore so i have wasted a lot of time giving instructions. I told them no speaking in Chinese but still they're soooo stubborn! haaaay... it takes time i think.... but i just want to whine again! hehehehe

                 on the ohter hand, it gave me a warm feeling when i got back here in my dorm to wait for my next class... im suppose to check homeworks again..but you see, i am updating my lj again and answering emails :D well.., speaking of emails..., i got emails from the Lao-shis (teachers) that i met on the train on our way back Shijiazhuang to Chengde ;) Oh! very nice Chinese teachers! :) they're from Ping Juan 90 kms from Chengde! They are inviting me to their place :) They tried their best to answer my email tho its hard for them to write in english but with the help of online translation, we were able to communicate :) i posted our pic during that night ;)
We're the only ones on that train who are noisy and awake! hehehhe... they are trying to teach me some chinese words in which i find very hard topronounce but they are very patient on me... i gave them a Philippine peso coin as remembrance :) they want me to marry a chinese guy! ;) wow! i find chinese people very nice, accomodating and sincere people :)

                so, here's our pic that night in order for you to have an idea how they look like ;)

                 I'm now going to answer their emails to me and send this pic too :)

                  Teacher Ren is wearing the black coat, Teacher Carmen my co Filipina teacher wearing a cap, me doing the peace sign and then Teacher Yao on the Yellow coat ;)

cooooooooold thursday morning....

Thu, 20 Nov 2008 01:29:28 GMT

i hate thursdays and fridays coz my classes are sooo early! i have to wake up at 6:30 am and must be in my building by 730am.... its really cold today and i still haven't shopped for my winter clothes...well i hope i can get my money next week and go shopping!!!!!!!!! :D its hardfor me to type entries because my fingers are freezing... they turned off the heater in our dormitory and all the buildings so its really cold! its a good thing that the sun is shining today so i can walk under the sun ;)

i am being lazy again today :P i told myself that after my first class in the morning, i will sit and check my students homework...but as i sit here i opened my computer and started to update my lj... heheh maybe i will do the checking later...coz i need speaker so i can just listen to music while checking..because if not..i will fall asleep on my desk again...and i think i need to get my chair back since they took it yesterday.... and now im still sitting on my bedside table.... haaay.... ok...i have to go in a while..coz it's a 10mins walk from here to my building and i still have to drop by at the international dept's office to remind my boss about the speaker that im borrowing from her...

so i'd better go ;) and start walking.... have a nice day peeps! :)

IM BACK!!!

Wed, 19 Nov 2008 08:58:30 GMT

after a month of silence! finally, im back to lj again! hihihihi!

im here in China :) it's a very nice place... I am very excited to be here.. The people are great! my student's are active and bright! the place is quiet and nice....oh! i love it here!... imnot in the mood to write at this moment..maybe later i will update my joural... i miss lj and my friends here :)

upset

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 17:52:37 GMT

haaaay..... now, i really do believe that after experiencing extreme happiness comes dissappointment. i just received messages from the agency, online tutorial and english academy. all asking me to report. so it means i got job invitations(actually not just invitations but they're all convincing me to work with them. specially that online tutorial). i feel so lucky really.

but on the other hand really nervous becuase ill be leaving soon. and on the other hand, having money problems coz the placement fee they're asking is too high :( haaay i dunno where to get taht placement money. haaaaay its hard to be poor :-s i don't want to bother my mom to loan and use our land properties as collateral. i will feel uneasy if she does that. haaaaaaaaaaaay..... im whinning again!

Writer's Block: Unnecessary Objects

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 08:12:55 GMT

books, computer and tv.

lalalala the family guy! lalala the family guy! :D

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 06:35:05 GMT

hehehe family guy rules! eversince some friends introduced me family, i can't stop watching it hehehe cool show love it ;) so i can't write much at the moment until i finish watching season 4///( yeah i know its season 7 already) i just really don't like watching 'em on tv. i prefere to watch it on dvd. i still ahve to catch on dexter and heroes coz season 3 are now showing on tv ;) i'm a tv series addict these past few months....

   i am too busy with family guy that until now i still haven't gone through with my L WORD dvd. i have seasons 1-3 to watch and the last 2 seasons of sex and the city :D

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unknown feeling.

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 14:41:28 GMT

have you ever felt an uknown feeling? i always have this unknown feeling. or its just me and i'm just suppressing it? awwwww... the past few days i'm having nightmares again and feeling sad.... only one person makes me feel this way. and he's non other than my mystery man :( haaaay....

i read in THE ZAHIR that if an important person in your life just vanished without saying goodbye it means he or she didn't leave you at all... it means you didn't lose them... they just have to leave for awhile...
another pain struck me... am i important to my mystery man too? or im just the one who treat him importanty? it doesnt matte if my feelings or the importance i showed him will be reciprocated .... i just wish he didn't vanish or that he'll be back anytime soon....

aaaawwww c'mon cate! he's just a dream... a fantasy! what makes you think that a person like him will feel something special for you. wake up from your sleep and stop dreaming and fantasizing! you have to forget everything about him... ***sigh***